words can never be enough.

Indecisive me
mel ask me to blog about the career path i want to take so that everyone can pray specifically. Sigh...i feel depressed thinking about this. I feel like Alice in wonderland coming to a fork in the road and asking GOD aka the chesire cat which road to take. i really dun knoe. i really wish i can hv more passion, aim n direction in life. but it really doesnt matter which road i take as I knoe he is at the end of it.

Expected salary: $1800 ( i prefer to work bcoz i enjoy not bcoz of pay)
Jobs that I am praying for in order of preference:
1) teaching related ( i really do enjoy teaching but the door of opportunity is not open n i do doubt if i am cut up for it a not)
2) admin related ( even thou i really dun like but i see myself more suited to it)
3) marketing communications/ promotions related ( for the sake of my degree but i m not really suited to it)

I pray for more doors of job opportunities to be opened and for the LORD to show me some direction of the career path i should take.

believing in his hope everyday

hey fiona here! got sth to share with u all. been reading the bible from cover to cover since last year...havent made much progress thou. so this year i have decided to wake up early every morning to read at least a few chapters. anyway i have to wake up really early to expect the phone call to do relief teaching for the morning session. but it has really been disheartening for me not to receive any assignments in the first week of Jan.....have been bumping around at home...slacking for more than one month. no interviews either.

10th Jan, I was reading all about Habakkuk. how the prophet question GOD directly about the injustice of his own ppl n ask for help. But GOD seem to remain silent for a time but not forever. i was then thinking abt my unanswered prayers to open doors of opportunity and to give me some direction and hope regarding my future. The student bible that i hv been reading assured me that my future belongs to GOD, that as a believer i should cling on to the truth embodied in 2:4. The righteous will live by his faith ---- meaning that righteous ppl must patiently trust GOD in a difficult time. which brings to mind what PD said abt patience - waiting patiently for the Lord. Habakkuk ended the book rejoicing and finding strength in the Lord no matter how hard life have become.

11th Jan, the next book was Zephaniah where the prophet unlike the previous prophets predicted a remade world that is learning to worship the Lord...a very positive outlook despite the bleak circumstances. Haggai spoke to me alot where the prophet urge everyone to give careful thought to their situation as they need to put GOD first n rebuild his temple. 2: 1-9 shows how GOD had glorious plans for Israel n that his presence will be with them in their prosperity. i felt assured of the glorious plans he had for me, telling me not to fear and that he is with me. by faith in 2: 19 where he said from this day on i will bless you. i copied the verse in my journal n put the date 11th Jan.

Little did i knoe that day, i received two contacts for tuition...never mind that its not really confirmed. n that evening while attending the council meeting at HQ, i received a call for the key contact person fr unity primary to confirm that i am doing relief teaching. i was really surprised it was after school hours n she used her handphone. Oh man the next day i had the assignment and then she decide to book me for the whole of next week or even longer for afternoon session. i am keeping my fingers crossed, she will call to confirm on monday. i hope she dun give the assignment away to someone else coz of recruitment i miss friday session n also coz i hv claimed it liao. downside is i can say bye bye to GB every friday. then also next day receive a call for an interview on monday. public liaison officer at URA. not really keen on handling summonses n traffic offenses stuff. but i will try.....i really dread interviews. probably fall to pieces in front of 3 interviewers...pls pray dat i wont. I thank GOD for the unexpected change in the situation but all is not well as i kana rejected a second time for teaching...quite disappointed. still stumbling along n wondering what is in store as my future career but at least i knoe he is in control.

subzone outing.

hey all,

didn't get a chance to say. please spread the word that Mel's goal for the new year is to build the bigger family. thus, we'll have subzone outings monthly :) when she's back it will start!

entering a new year with God

happy new year to all my sisters! i just realised i haven't had the time to check out the blog and wow, got so many new updates already. i've missed out on so many things. anyway, it was really fun counting down and celebrating the new year in church even though i thought the counting down part might not be fun. but i would like to correct it, because after the experience, it was fun because God was there and i believe we all learnt something from ps william's message. also, from ps khong's message. but one thing they had in similar was about not being late and it really spoke to me. i will try to be early for service from now on (i don't want to be locked out,haha). and i will pay more attention during the word. i will be serious about God. and really, it's all about God so let's just check out hearts if we are there for Him. and then, let's party hard and celebrate Him every week! wah, got so many things to change in this new year. haha. but i believe, when we have done all these, people will see that we are serious about God and why He is so important.

yup, and from the celebration, the songs are really a source of inspiration as well. i really like the lyrics of the songs. and they've been playing in my head since last night. let me just write here, hahaa.

and even though sometimes your ways i cannot understand
i'll never walk away because my future's in your hands
i don't care what people will say. i'm running after you!
i won't turn back and go their way. i'm running after you!
no matter what may come my way. i'm running after you!
it's you i'm following today! i'm running after you!

i wonder if everyone has new year resolutions, but one of mine is to keep running after Him. honestly, i am very afraid of the year that is coming as well because i don't know what is ahead (like anyone knows), but ya. i am afraid of drifting away, so do remind me to run after Him! and here, thank you for your christmas cards because they really encourage me to run this race.

tell the world that Jesus lives
tell the world that, tell the world that
tell the world that He died for them
tell the world that He lives again
c'mon c'mon let's tell the world about You
c'mon c'mon let's tell the world about You

and as i sang this song, i felt that i haven't been telling the world about Him enough. i think God has presented chances where people i just know in the past year has talked to me about Christianity. but i've always lacked the courage to talk to them more about it. i don't know if i've let chances go by or if i should wait for a better time, like until i know them better. sometimes i really want to tell them about God but i don't know where to start and i don't know how to say. tongue-tied is the word. so i hope this year, God can give me the courage and the words to tell the world about Him. i remember talking to someone about feeling disappointed when we see salvations from other subzones but not our own. but this year, i want to not feel disappointed when the people we bring or talk to do not have any reaction. i pray that this year i can just go out and talk to them about God no matter what their reaction might be. at least, i told them there's someone called Jesus who died for them and the joy He can give. and i just felt the prompting to tell 12 people about Him this year. and when i reached home, after some calculations, i realised i got 1 month to tell one person about Him. haha. but i realised it's all guy friends. i don't really like, but blah, i will try to tell them about Jesus, cuz God is not sexist. haha.