Plopped onto earth again

Hi
I don't know how long it has been, but it sure feels like it has been a thousand years since I step into this side of the world.

Yes I am still alive!

I've never been so good at going missing, I aced it. SMSes were sparse too, I think everyone thought i might have chewed my phone in my stressed and confused agonized mind. Anyway i thought i should correct a popular belief that I am stressed. Actually i dun get that. I just get sad.


So, it definitely helped to have great colleagues and that God is always only a conversation away. I don't pray, I just whined. Like "Oh GOD...why like that......." to.. "OH DEAR GOD...I am so tired....... " to..."GOD, I want to give up...." and "Father, please bring me the taxi....."

Yes, I have been down and out... dealing with exasperating stuff at studio.. re-do re-do to infinity..a simple thing until it made me feel like crap that I can't even do a simple thing..in fact, a simple yucky stuff that I am utterly ashamed of but I just couldnt seem to change it.....and so someone (anyone) will say of cos my self-worth is not based on a simple stupid paper design...but still trust me..at those times..u just feel like crashing your head into the monitor screen in front of you and just die there. And the auntie sweeping the floor the next day will just think " joy to the world! she finally decided to stop killing so many trees printing so many urgly designs." Maybe you dun understand but at least, my monitor will agree with me. oh maybe my boss too.

Then came a bout of... dealing with machines that are 3 times bigger than me... machines that can saw off your fingers and drill holes into your palms..machines that can chew off your head... yes.. I am good with using all these.. tell me if your house needs renovations.. and don't be surprised I can hammer nails into walls like a man. Yet, this whole nei nei prototyping process is killing me cos' I am just not good enough! I can't build a good model without faults without having something go wrong. They just have to break down on me..and my stubborn hands simply can't craft the material into what I need them to be! I just jinxed all machines that I work with... well done pris. well done. *faints*

So..... work is tough for stupid people like me. I need a new brain.

But thank God, a small battle is over for me and I came out..not totally unharmed...in fact quite bruised on both my ego and my fingers..but when the dust settled and the exhibition opened....there was a small frame of time to reflect. I didn't go hide out at lil india, my pensive lil' room. I just stood at my exhibition place and looked at it all. So much to be done better..so much that can be done better.

This time it didn't get me down as much. I understood something. That i really need to kick my lazy laidback blur negative nei nei attitude aside and take some positive actions. And so i always talk and no action and that is no good.

A lil bit of sincerity, a lil bit of focus, a lil bit of purpose.

It was actually hilarious and at the same time alarming, that I dreamt of pastor deb. one night and she just said, "you are selfish." haha. wierd. but got me thinking. yes maybe.

So, in a few days' time..it's another battle. This time a goliath all the way till January end. I hope to be ready then. And I hope to be like David.

Before that, a lil advertisement, our team's exhibition is at

Sculpture Square,
located along Middle Road,
Opposite Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts, walkable from the Central Library at Bugis/ City Hall there...
Near Laselle... opposite Fortune Centre
It's till 6th December.

Entitled "Object as Architecture, Architecture as Object"

do drop by to be a lil bit inspired!

The Singapore Design Fest is simply getting better and better... so.. maybe we can organise a trip to go around the different venues that will be exhibiting if you all are keen on sunday after service..designs..art installations..architecture... all things you can identify with even if u r not a designer.

The opening party was over for our exhibition at sculpture square so there are no longer free drinks and cocktails..but there are other party venues throughout this week still. I am sorry for not notifying anyone. I didn't realised I didn't informed anyone cos' my stupid brain couldn't multi-task.

Meanwhile take care and see you all cos i have landed on earth again finally.
I hope I bought a one-way ticket this time.

:)

Our humble lil' celebration at...The Deck!!

Chng's bday wish...What could it be? It's gotta be...World Peace! Lol.



And our gorgeous lady of 21 poses with her tiny lil' cake. Cheong aren't u glad she went off on Sun so u could have the big big cake to yrself?! Hahaha.

Happy Birthday Cheong!!

The delicious cake--we just couldn't wait to get our hands on it. Every crumb was devoured.

Our beautiful sister getting ready to cut the cake...or us? *trembles*

more of the Princess of God!!

Emmanuel our wonderfully cute Tribe Baby. May u have one soon Cheong, for us to play with! *Hee*

Nick is coming..

HEY..Let's all move together to invite our friends who needs an affirmation today! =)

Updates...

Just Some random Pics!

Dear family...

First of all... "HOW ARE YOU?" It's been an exciting season with a number of us embarking on new journeys (new relationship, work, etc). But.. hmm... it seems real quiet here.. :P It'd be really good if we all start blogging yeah.. cos in the midst of our own lives, it is still important to stay connected.. So that we can remember that tho' we are on different journeys, we all run the same race for Christ. As a family, we are here to spur each other on in this race.

As for me.. i have recieved my new posts and class deployment.. it sure is tough.. I had a few nights where i just work up at 5 plus am..as if it's normal school teaching days and started thinking abt lesson planning.. :( For the new year, i will be teaching (sec 1Express, 3 express, 5 normal acad, 3 normal tech-supposedly t the most challenging in school.)Most English teachers quota is 3 classes.. this plus other duties (sec 3 level coordinator/cip coordinator) make me rather fearful.. After i have talked to my head.. she said that she understands my apprehension, but cos of shortage of manpower.. so no choice.. heh.. But i still believe that the Lord will bring me thru this and that His grace is ALWAYS sufficient..so praise the Lord.. i have resumed my normal sleep hours. How about you all? how are things on your side.. post up ok, so thaat we can be praying for each other. Please keep me in prayer too.

For our tribe, it is also a new year coming.. the year of sabbath.. i am praying and seeking Him on how we can move in His presence. I am also projecting how i will be able to balance my various priorities. I understand that for meeting in groups, it might take some time to adjust, but i believe that it will really anchor us strong in fellowship in the Father and each other. Meanwhile.. continue to love one another.

The upcoming dates have been given via calendar and gone thru during the last cell.. hope that you all have taken note and will take greater effort to rem the mtg dates.

These are the remaining meeting dates:

25th nov-congre mtg

2 Dec- Nick service, cell time after service

13 Dec- Cell gp

19-21 Dec: Family retreat

24 Dec: Christmas party+carolling

27 Dec: Youth Marketplace training

29Dec: Presentation of Plans for 2008 (TCT consol room)

30 Dec-congre

31 Dec- Countdown party

Could you post up in your groups by 30th Nov the names of your friends you are inviting, so that we can all be praying, let's not waste this opportunity... cos i believe that Nick's testimony will really impact lives..lt's be exciting in seeing our friends blessed.

Also i need to know who cant make it for the family retreat on the 19-21Dec, other than elaine... otherwise it is taken that you are cmg yea..=)

Meanwhile let's keep Peng in prayer as she does the exhibition end of this mth.. also pray for the NUS pple who are taking their papers.

Hope to hear from u all..

Mummy mel